Problems and Prayer

Last night my dad was acting very strange. I was so upset and worried. I spent hours crying. Aaron called me and talked to me and encouraged me that God was there and I would be okay. Then I sent a message to everyone in the prayer group asking them to pray for me or call me to pray with me. A few minutes later, Heather called me. She said she never wakes up in the middle of the night, and that God must have made her wake up so she could pray with me. I told her about the crazy things my dad had been doing.

Then I cried to sleep.

This morning I decided that I was going to move out. I got several offers of places to stay, and I decided I would just move to my grandma's house, since that would be easiest. I told my mom about it, and she gave me her blessing.

Then told me that my dad was in jail. For meth.

I was shocked, but it makes a little more sense now. A lot of things he did and said before are explained by this now.

I told my mom I couldn't handle being here if he was here, and that I was going to live with grandma. Later, I got a message from a friend's mom saying that I was welcome to stay with her until school started. So I have made arrangements to fly to Mount Vernon on July 22nd to stay with her. I will book the flight once I confirm with her that it is really okay.

All throughout the day I have been praying and having people pray for me. It's the only way I am able to hold myself together right now.

I spent the entire day working, but kept K-love on while cleaning, driving, and resting. Some of the songs on there really have helped comfort me and keep my focus on God in this hard time.

Then Aaron, Laura, David, and Ray called me. They prayed with me, and I cried some more. Just as we finished praying, I heard the song "Held" by Natalie Grant in the background, and I just know that God sent that song for me at that time because it is perfect for what I am going through right now.

I'm so hurt, but God and the friends He blessed me with are keeping me going. I will not get cold. This will make the fire in me burn brighter, and I will be a living testimony of the power of God!