Peace

Last night at prayer group, a lot of powerful things happened. Immediately after we began to pray, I could feel the Spirit, and out of nowhere, I had the strongest urgency to pray for the young man who abused me not long ago. So I cried out to God and held nothing in my prayers back. I mentally went through every room in his house and asked God to clean them out and get rid of the body. I prayed that someone would come into his life that he might really know God—not just say he does. After a lot of prayer, I felt a peace on the subject, although I still wonder where God is going to take that prayer and if I’m going to play some part in helping this man to Jesus.

After that I began to pour out my own problem: Where does God want me? I prayed for some kind of clear sign or road map, but God doesn’t work that way. After some time praying, I felt a peace and felt as if God was saying, “This is where I want you to be right now.” I opened my eyes and looked to the skies and saw one star shining bright in the sky. It was peaceful to me. God will lead me a little at a time and I will not lose my way, just like people long ago followed the stars so they wouldn’t get lost. They couldn’t always see far in front of them, but they knew they could find their way.

After that, my heart swelled with praise. I didn’t know how to express it right. I just asked God, “What do you want me to do right now?” and I could feel so strongly in my heart that He replied, “Run!” So I ran. I ran so fast, I spun in circles, and I couldn’t stop! I have never gone that fast. Afterwards Aaron even said for a minute he didn’t know if it was me, I was running so fast!

After running and praising God the entire time, I went a way away from the group and started softly singing praises to God. I felt at peace. Then I felt like God was calling me back to the group. Laura was on the ground praying and crying, and honestly, I had no idea what to do. I said, “God, I don’t know what words to say, but I know you want me to hug her and comfort her.” So I hugged her and held her while she prayed and cried. After she was done, we talked a little, then went for a little walk to talk some more.

When we got back, the rest of the group was done praying, and we started to talk with each other. Aaron and Laura separated from the group a little and started a long chat. Ray, David, Elizabeth and I were chatting and laughing and having fun. Then we noticed Laura praying over Aaron, and we all went to pray over him. While we were praying, I had my hand above his arm and I felt the same tingling feeling I felt when I started to pray that evening. I know the Spirit was there in a strong way during our prayers. I’m still learning and I have no idea what all of this means, but it means something.

The biggest feeling I walked away with that night was peace. God has given me a peace about all of these things in my life that used to worry me so much. I need to hold on to that peace, even as I am headed home soon.

Glory to God forever!