The White Rose - My Experience at Prayer Group

I went to a prayer group tonight with Aaron. Heather was there as well, and I met three others. We met up at the chapel, and then we started to walk to find a place to pray. The more we walked, the more the pain in my body grew. I could feel Satan and his demons didn’t want me to be there. As we started to share, then pray, I felt more and more pain. I felt not just the physical pain, but some of the emotional pain as well: the feeling that I am not worthy, that I am not pure.

As we shared stories of things God had done this week, this guy said that he’s been really worried about things and that he knows he needs to just trust God each step of the way. This brought back the verse God showed me yesterday: “The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?” (Proverbs 20:24) I shared this with him, and he smiled so big. Everyone knew it was God who put that verse in my path yesterday to give to this boy today.

After everyone shared their stories, we began to pray. The pain in my body was overwhelming. The reminders of my sins and the things done to me—the violations of my purity—were strong. Satan wanted to hold me back. But then someone (I think it was Laura) stepped forward and put their hand on me and started to pray over me. In no time, everyone was praying over me and I was weeping. Whenever someone mentioned purity and how God makes me pure, I cried harder and harder. Eventually I couldn’t take it and I fell to my knees. Everyone continued to pray over me. Those who had just met me said things that only God could have told them, and I felt surrounded by God.

Then Aaron told me that God gave him a vision about me. What he wrote on the paper I now have in front of me is this: “Beforehand, while getting ready, I received a mental image of us praying over Faith. The word “lamp stand” came to me, along with the Book of Daniel. This then led me to Revelation with the 7 churches, or the 7 lamp stands. Faith, you ARE the Church! You are His BELOVED! (see Deut. Verse that I got you!).

The Laura spoke, and mentioned a white rose. I nearly cried; white roses are my favorite because they represent purity—purity that I long for again. What she wrote on the paper is this: “God gave me a picture of you as a white rose. He sees you as white, pure and cleansed by His blood. And the rose is also beautiful which He also sees you as. He created you beautifully, never forget that! Love!

I have struggled with feeling like God has really cleansed me of the things done to me and the things I have done, and so now with these visions that people have received, I know that I am pure! God has made me pure! I am His beloved! And I know that God is planning to use me to be His church and to do great things throughout the world. I know He wants me to start right here in Mount Vernon. I must tell everyone I can about these great things God has been doing in my life!

Then Aaron’s dad had to give me a ride home. Within minutes of me getting in the car, he told me that around 9:40 PM he felt that God was putting it on his heart to pray for me (this was around the same time everyone else was praying for me). This just confirmed even further that God was really at work tonight and that the spirits that mean to harm me and tell me I’m not worth it are WRONG. THEY HAVE NO POWER OVER ME!

Then after I got to my grandma’s apartment, I had a bite to eat then went into her closet (the only place I could turn on the light and read). I looked at my shirts and was trying to decide what to wear. I saw my green shirt that my aunt gave me, and took a closer look. I had never looked especially close to the shirt, but now I see it clearly: The word “Faith” is across the top. There is a white rose with wings behind it. And below are the words “Trust You.” This was just one more thing that just made this night perfect and I know that it is God working with the things that surround me to make this happen.

I will sleep in the peace of the Holy Spirit tonight. God is so great!!